I've done it. I've totally done myself in. I've started fantasizing about a guy I know from school in the middle of the computer lab while he's sitting 3 computers away from me. Not good. Sooooo not good.

Can I help it he's fucking gorgeous? Can I help it that we have so much in common and are totally compatible and he just doesn't realize it yet? No! I can't!

God. It's infuriating. And he's one of those types of guys that I get tongue-tied around. I can't speak. My face turns a shade similar to a shiny apple. I start to say stupid and demented things.

He's younger. Only 2 years. But thats not much. And he looks so much older. Facial hair... beautiful goatee. And he's taller. Long hair. Everything I've always wanted. DAMNIT. WHY GOD!? WHY MUST YOU BE SO CRUEL!?

I'm a frickin' hornball. I sooooo need to stop. Lord.

Is it just me or is it hot in here? bwahaha.

By the way... I turned 19 yesterday. Don't feel any older. It was just another day. But... it was one of the best days of my life, and most certainly the best birthday I have ever had, despite the fact that I had to work. =) More on it later....