I've started eating better. Or.. yea. Kind of. I don't eat breakfast, I rarely eat lunch at school anymore (usually come home and just have a sandwich), and then I eat a good supper. I'm not spending as much money. I fit into my thin pants. I have probably only lost like 5 pounds. Who knows. One thing for sure is that I am not spending the amount of money I was before because I have gotten really serious about saving money for college. I have to start taking out loans for it now. I hate that idea. I never wanted to take out any loans, but it's going to be impossible to go through it all without a single loan. Absolutely impossible. So loans it is.

We are finally in to the house. It's large and spacious, and I'm having a bit of a hard time adjusting, especially considering I am rarely here. The light switches are confusing, I forget which way door handles are spposed to turn, how to get into the house, how to work the alarm system, even one section of the house has hallways that confuse me! And worse of all... my room is about half the size it was back in the old house. It's just about the same size my room in the apartment was. And I hate that. My parents lied to me... my dad said that my room was going to be only 1 square foot less than it was before, and once I got in here and got all my stuff in here I told my dad he was a frickin liar and that this was not 1 square foot. And he admitted to lying to me. Its stupid. gah. I dunno. I dunno what to think about that. I should feel blessed to have a room at all, even more so to have a beautiful house... but then again, it is very disappointing to be downgraded and lied too. You would feel the same way, wouldn't you?

Work still sucks. My manager is still taking advantage of me every chance she gets. AND she keeps telling me I'm not doing a good enough job, and has even asked me if I would like to go back to cashiering. Complete bullshit. NO, I do not want to go back to cashiering, thank you very much. I see a new job on the horizon... possibly within 6 months. Or maybe I'll hold it out until the summer, quit Cashwise, work at Star Lake for the summer, and then find a new job when I get back home. Something I would enjoy. Maybe data entry, or something of the sorts. Most people would be like "Data entry!? What kind of boring ass crap is that? How can you do that!?"... I like menial tasks like that. Something small that I can do really really well. I like the routine. I really do. I'm a strange breed. hmm. I certainly need a job where I get paid more though. With better hours.

School is still going alright. Its full of drama... thats what I get for being in the AFA program. Theater and Music people... we're creative drama queens. yikes. I'm pretty sure I'm failing music theaory right now, which is most definently not good because I have to take 3 more semesters of it and it would set me back 2 semesters... so not good. So I need to kick my ass into gear My problem is that it's my first class of the morning, and I hate the drive over there. It's dangerous for me. I almost fall asleep. And I don't have enough minutes on my phone for me to call somebody and talk to them to keep me awake for 30 minutes every day when I go there.

Speaking of phones, I'm getting on a plan. Virgin Mobile is not working for me anymore... no more pay-as-you-go stuff. Too expensive. I'm going to join T-Mobile so I can talk to Shaun for free. =) That would cut down my costs greatly.

Shaun and I are currently getting along. We have our days, and I notice them rather quickly and I step back as fast as I can. I don't want us to get angry at each other or anything. She's the only person I can really really talk to about many things. Particularly about sex and the like. And we know each other so well. We have a connection. We just have to look at one another to know what the other person is thinking. I only wish I could have that sort of connection with a guy. haha.

Nothing on the guy front. At all. One guy that did have a crush on me is currently very angry at me because I keep skipping class, and he thinks it's stupid. Probably thinks I'm lazy. eh. It wasn't like I was into him or anything... at all. Really not into him. So it doesn't make a difference. But it kind of makes me sad to know he's not all that into me anymore.

My god. I sound like I'm junior high again. Gah... gag me with a spoon!

I should probably just go to sleep. I'm leaving very early in the morning to go to Ely for the weekend. Theres supposed to be like... snow up there this weekend. I'm not sure. I do know it's very very cold. It was 37 degrees there the other day when I checked. Gah... I can't even imagine how interesting this trip is going to be. Frustrating for sure. Maybe I'll update when I get back. I'll have plenty of things to say...