I'm writing in my journal tonight as a request from Lilly. :) yay for Lilly! I love her. I saw her tonight at her work, and it was fun... except for I became very distracted from everything else then and became INCREDIBLY ditzy. haha... really bad. I couldn't stand myself. But oh well... at least I saw Lilly.

I have discovered I am very talented. I am able to throw multiple eggs at a car at one time (as in, one throw), while driving. I'm best at throwing 2 in one shot... when I threw the 2, one hit the driver's side window, and the back driver's side window. Dead center. It was frickin sweet. :) Tonight we (me and my brother, though really it was just me because he's too chicken to throw any eggs *HA! too chicken to throw any eggs!!! too funny!*) finished off the carton of a dozen eggs I had sitting in my back seat under a blanket, because my dad went into my car the other day and I just about shit myself because I was so scared. I thought he was gonna find them, and I know that he would know what I was doing, and I would most likely be punished severely. So we drove past Becca's (my brother's ex-girlfriend who has egged our vehicles 3 seperate times, causing lots of damage and making us spend money to fix those problems)... anyways, we drove past Becca's house three times. The first time I threw 3 eggs. 2 hit in the same way they had before, and then one just barely hit the bottom of the door. The 2nd time around I threw 4.... and completely missed. I should not throw more than 3... at the most. 2 is the best number for me I think. The third time we went around (which is stupid... someone is gonna notice a white car driving around the block three times with a pink ball on the antennae and a princess frame around the back license plate), I threw only one, because my brother decided to just hurl one at some random car. I wish we had used the whole dozen on her car... she deserves. She's been such a bitch for no reason. We hadn't done a single thing to her up until now, and the only reason we did it was because I was sick of the damage she was causing to our vehicles. Oh, and I know she's been plotting something against my brother. I can just feel it. Not only that, she's been sneaking around with one of his "friends" in an eerie way, that makes me think that she's plotting to do something to him, because she now has his whole schedule figured out at school. He said that she kept showing up at all his classes today with his friend... just kind of stood outside the door and looked at him and then they'd walk away. grrr.... I could just.... I dunno. Put her in a headlock like I do in all my other fights. I'm so stupid.

Halloween is an evil holiday to a person who is not supposed to have a lot of sugar. But alas, I managed to pass my full day's allowed consumption of sugar at like, 10 o clock this morning, and then continued on with eating the sugar. Oh, but I will be feeling it tomorrow! And it's that time of the month.... I will just be a cramp ball tomorrow. Thank god my dad bought a heating pad for me when I got my wisdom teeth pulled. I can just hook that baby up, and away into sleep land I go.

I was just about to say slumberland, which reminded me that I was supposed to call out to the local slumberland today in order to get an interview with a manager or somebody for the school newspaper (magnet), for which I am a reporter. Have I mentioned that before in here? That I'm a reporter for the school newspaper? Ya... yeps. It drives me batty. I'm horrible at giving interviews, I never know whats going on the school (therefore, I can never present ideas for stories), and I don't know a damn thing about sports or who the captains or coaches are... so I am praying that I will not be assigned a sports story anytime soon, though I'm pretty damn sure it'll happen sometime before the end of the school year. I do have the column for this upcoming edition. Ok... to jsut let you know, for the whole newspaper, we don't attach names to any of the stories for who wrote them. The only things that we attach who authored them is the column (that moi is doing this time) and the comic strips. Everybody gets listed in the masthead, and thats enough. haha. Soooo... this time, people will know that I wrote it. I've already got an idea for what I want to write. We're watching "Bowling for Columbine" in political science, and I want to stem a topic off of that. When I get it done (which should probably be tomorrow afternoon), I'll post it up in here.

I got my senior picture proofs. I've been thinking about how to post them on here... they're extremely large files and I don't think I could host those on imagestation. Does anyone know a place I can host really big images, that anyone can view? I'd really appreciate any help! The pictures turned out alright... almost all of the outdoor pictures are absolutely wonderful. Most of the pictures that I will end up ordering will be outdoors. I think I will only get one indoor pose, and that has my violin in it. Unfortunately, it's the only violin picture I like. The other ones really suck. I look ugly when I play the violin. I get a double chin and I go cross eyed. At least I'm happy when I play though... thats what counts.

I found out I'm a lot like Einstein. Heres my reasoning: Einstein had ADD and Asperger's, he was smart but didn't do well in school, he played the violin but had horrible posture and technique (but he was happy while doing it!), and I dunno what else. But all that stuff is me. haha... Theres tons of stuff about him though that I'm really not like. Like... he was good at math. Math scares me. I hate it. But... ya. :) Out of the whole entry, this was the most random thing. haha.

After having gone to college vistis, I am now trying to kick my butt into high gear and get good grades. End of the quarter is next week... I'm still currently failing utopian lit. I should hopefully have that corrected by next monday. It's gonna require a lot of reading. I so desperately want to get into st. olaf. I'm thinking of calling my advisor/case manager/whatever they call it person at olaf and asking her what my chances of getting in are currently. Without this quarter's grades, I am sitting at a 2.95 weighted GPA, and I am ranked 192 in a class of 351. I'm in the bottom 50%. Thats not too goo. But it's getting close to being in the top 50%. And who knows... numbers will change by the end of the quarter. With the 3 A's I'm getting now, and hopefully a B I'll finish with in political science and maybe a c+ in utopian lit... it should bring my GPA up just a little. Maybe. And lots of people have dropped out of school now I think, so my rank will go up at least a little! gah... I'm stupid. Wishful thinking. I really need to kick my own ass and get things going. I can not afford to screw this up. I just can't find another college I want to go to besides St. Olaf, and I'm really setting myself up for dissapointment if I don't bring my grades up. It's gonna be my own damn fault.

Well, it's way past my bedtime and I need to get to doing that homework I haven't been doing. I shall write again soon I think. As I got to typing, I realized how much I can go on and on and how much I have to say. It's nice being able to actually say it. To just let my mind... pour? I dunno. To just drain things. Maybe I'll sleep better tonight because of having have said these things... I won't be thinking about them as I'm tossing and turning in bed, which I actually do a lot. But as long as I have the nice warm cat next to me to keep me warm and comfy, and I concentrate on his purring.... I should be fine. haha. mmmmmm.... warm kitty. Gotta love it.

PS- GO RED SOX! gotta root for the underdog. I'm a fan of every team in baseball... but I really want the sox to win!! :)