I hate when theres a mess going on in my house and theres so much that it just overwhelms me and I can't clean it up, yet it really really frustrates me to have it there.

Yet, I have mountains and mountains of stuff in my room all over the place, so much so that you can hardly move, and yet I don't feel at all cluttered ion there. Well, sometimes I do.... but I dunno.

I get this frustrated overwhelming feeling on days when I don't take my ADHD meds. Some connection? I think so. haha. Has to be... why is it only those days? Ok... it does happen when I have PMS too, but I mean, c'mon. That's PMS. But when I'm otherwise "normal", it's only on the days I don't take my meds.

Though, I must say that not taking my Strattera helped me become a spelling and grammar checking machine this morning while doing the school newspaper. I whipped out my handy dandy purple pen, and pretty soon all of the pages were just covered with it, except for the first page of course where I just sat at the computer for about 30 minutes and just made corrections, and after someone else sat at the computer and fooled around for a bit with it, even though he shouldn't have because he doesn't know a damn thing about doing a newspaper, I went back and fixed what he messed up... because seriously. He really messed it up. He took the correct spellings of things and changed them because he thought they were wrong. I'm usually not so... whats the word? picky? I think... I'm not usually so picky about spelling and stuff, especially in my own diary... but the school newspaper is handed out to roughly 1500 students, and then given to over 100 faculty members, and then gets circulated around town, and parents of the kids who get them read it... it's somethinga lot of people will see, and I don't want to look like a fool. My name is listed among the 14 other reporters, and we don't list names at the tops of each story, so I don't want to look ridiculous.

And side note... the one story I had for this edition of the newspaper did not have one single error in it. Not even a spelling mistake. I am extremely proud of that. That's a hard thing to accomplish sometimes... I was the only person to do so.

I dunno why I'm writing in here, I just felt like it. That last entry I wrote really sucked. This one does too. I hate when I hate what I write. Just as much as I hate feeling stuffy with all this clutter in the house. Maybe I should get up off my lazy ass and do something about it...

You know, I'll probably write again in 2 days, and the stuff probably still won't be picked up. I suck.