I was just remembering something Brent had said while Sheila, him, and me were sitting around the fire during our all-nighter.
Sheila had posed the question of what our standards are for when we are going to have sex. "free love", definite love, marriage? Sheila and I gave pretty much the same answer... we want to wait until we're married, but whatever happens, happens. We'll know when the time is right.
Brent, coming back from grabbing firewood and throwing it under the tarp so it wouldn't get wet from the rain, gave no thought to it at all. He had his answer ready, and gave it quickly.
"Marriage. None of that 'when it happens it happens' crap. I want to make sure that we're fully committed to eachother, and that she's the one I'll spend the rest of my life with."
We found it so incredibly sweet.
In this day of age, where it seems everything is just sex sex sex... a guy, of all creatures, who is a virgin, and proud, and will stay that way until he finds the love of his life and marries her. Wow.
I wish more guys were like that.
And I wish more guys were like Brent.
I called Sheila up 2 nights ago, with the number that I had found on whitepages.com ... so I wasn't sure it was completely correct, though what are my chances when she lives in Kimball, a place with about 200 people, and thats the only person that comes up with her last name. No one had answered, so I left a message. I then went downtown and watched the concert going on down there (it was crap... doesn't deserve a full detailing), and then came back and watched Donnie Darko again. When I was getting into it, I remembered Sheila and then I was like "Oh! I wonder if she called back!!", so my mom checked the answering machine, and low and behold, a message from Sheila. :) It was like, 11 pm, so I didn't call her back that night, but yesterday morning I called her and actually got to talk to her. It was great! We talked about what we had been doing since camp, talked about Kris a little, and then I gave her the information for Ren Fest, and when we're going and stuff. Sooooooo... she's coming down to my house on the 27th of this month, and will be here until the 30th!!!! A whole freaking weekend with her!! It'll be so awesome. She'll be here, we'll get to hang out, go to ren fest, and then with an extra day for us, we'll probably go see Brent. :) I'm so happy about it... I can't wait. 2 weeks before I see her again... it's 2 weeks too long! At camp 2 weeks is too short, but here, it's too long. Go figure. haha.
I got my camp letter in the mail yesterday, and I love it. Seeing what everyone wrote to me, seeing what they thought of me is great. I'm actually gonna copy exactly what they wrote, minus last names and addresses, into here. :)
Jessica-
Wow what a fast 2 weeks. It has been great getting to know you these last 2 years. you seem to have come out of your shell a little more this year. It's great. Thank you for all your hard work. I hope you have a great summer + year.
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I had fun with you for the two weeks we had. See you next year. Peace.
Donald
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Jessica! Sweetness! I'm glad you came back to (star lake camp symbols). It's been fun! Great work on the cinnamon rolls :) I told you you can bake :) Anyways- til we meet again! God Bless! -Erin
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Jesica as I said b4, last night, I really respect your courage you have and the control you have. It was fun to talk w/ you at night on the beach. Hear about all the people who have pissed you off over the years, and your reactions lol. You better be back next summer I hope to see you here. Griffin
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I like the "j"in Jessica (capital J totally kicks). It's been nice talking to you during the not Star Lake season. You're really honest and hardworking. Also, you're really good at getting sunset pictures, some of them are simply amazing. You're a great person, keep it up Jessica (capital J!). Keep in touch this summer. Your camp elf, Brent.
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Jessica- Words cannot describe the love that is burning inside me for you! You are the sea + sky that surrounds my island of happiness + love! You have such a spirit! Im so glad we befriended eachother...!! A Star Lake newbie (like me) would be so lost without such a loving creature (like you)
Amen sista!
God Loves you!
Sheila
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You make great eggs in the morning
Kris
To help make sense to other people... Brent writes in cursive. And he has amazing handwriting.... it's just great. There's no flaw to it. It looks better than most girl's handwriting. So he likes how the J looks in cursive. :) And for camp elf... Brent kind of looks like an elf. I have a picture where he really really really looks like an elf... I'll post it soon, I hope. :)
I still need to write entries about each of them... I hope to do that next week, when I have a day off from work.
On an ending note, keeping with the happiness level... I completed my clothes shopping for school. I got some awesome clothes.... in a size 22!! :) Last year at this time, I was in a size 26. My size 22 pants are actually just slightly big, but I'm still to big for the next size down. If I actually do get into a size 16/18, I'm just gonna die. I haven't been in that size since the 6th grade. Craziness.
But I'm way down with the weight... even having fallen off of my diet really badly, the weight is still falling off. This morning, after having had breakfast, the scale says 291. Even if the scale was right, thats 36 pounds. The scale we have here is not right though, and can range anywhere from 3 pounds off to 10 pounds off in the minus direction.... so to fix it, lets say I weigh 281. :) 46 pounds. I look good, feel good (sometimes), and I've even gone down a shoe size. Kind of... I didn't buy the shoes, but the fact that I could even fit my feet into size 11 at all is pretty amazing.
Now all I need to do is start exercising, and then the weight will just drop like a rock... :)