I got an awesome swimsuit the other nite at Fashion Bug. It fits me perfectly, makes my ass look great, purely by the fact that you can't see my ass because I have the cliche fat girl skirt. It is a 2 piece. Whoever thought you'd see me wearing a 2 piece! :) It rocks.... I love it. Which would explain why I'm wearing it right now, complete with my regular underwear because the swimsuit hasn't been washed yet, while writing a diary entry. Right?

Is it sad that I want to by maternity clothes just because they'll stretch to my size, and they're fashionable? Would anyone notice if I were to buy maternity clothes? Like... look at this shirt:

I mean.. thats hot. I love that shirt! But it's a maternity shirt. I'm not pregnant, and it's meant for pregnant ladies. This isn't just a recent thing, either, that I've wanted to wear maternity clothes. I've always been drawn to that section since I was in like, the 5th grade. Thats sad.

Right now I'm listening to this awesome cd made by this guy (Tim) I used to have a crush on back in the 6th and 7th grade. He's an amazing musician. On this cd, he's playing the piano. If there was some way I could easily get one of the songs on here for you guys to hear it, I so would... but being that I can't, and he doesn't have any downloads on his site, I guess you're just gonna have to take my word for it. haha.

He's with this band called Forgetful Grace. They're alright together. I mean, individually... the guys are great. I don't really like Gabe... he seems really stuck up. But I dunno.. together it just doesn't sound right to me. Amazing musicians seperately though. I've heard people call them a bad group karma wise because of the energy they put out... to quote this one guy from my am. lit. class.. "They think they're untouchable because they worship God every minute of the day. They're just stuck-up". I'm alright with people worshipping God and everything, but I hate when it's forced on me. I don't mind the music though, because it can be adapted to different siutations. Like, in the song I'm hearing right now... I'm hearing in the chorus the words:

In the beginning of that, I can see how it's related to God (Praying with an open heart), but than near the end of it (don't be afraid to cry/Cause I'll wipe the tears...), sounds like he's talking about some girl he's in love with! So I dunno... it's confusing.

In the picture on the site, Tim is the one in the white shirt. Eric is in the back, Gabe is behind Tim, and the one up really close is Jason. All guys from school. So ya...

I went and saw Phantom of the Opera with my grandma today. It was alright... I wasn't all that into it to be honest. It didn't capture my interest like Les Mis did. I think it was just that it was so hard to follow. These people had full out opera voices, and I'm not used to that. I've never really heard that before, and I couldn't understand a word they were saying! I mean, I caught enough that I could follow the story, but it gave me a headache. Or maybe it was the yawning that was giving me a headache, because my jaw is still stiff from my teeth. It was at the historic Orpheum Theater. The place is really old... and just had this kind of... stale air, I guess is the way to describe it. Like when you walk into a really old house that has been turned into a museum, and you can smell how old everything is. That's what it was like. I don't really know what to say about Phantom. It was good... I mean, really, it was. But I just don't know how to describe it. I guess I think it was good because I appreciate the work that goes into a production like that. Thats a lot of hard work, and those people put a lot into it, and it would just be so mean to walk away and say I absolutely hated it. I didn't hate the acting, I didn't hate the story... I don't know what I don't like about it! haha.

Countdown to camp is 3 days. I am so excited... I can't wait. It's gonna be so hard being away from everything at home though! The computer, my parents. I won't mind being away from work though... although it's gonna put a severe dent in my next paycheck. I got my paycheck today... stupid taxes. Like close to $40 was taken out for taxes! I hate taxes. Poo on taxes. And I'm gonna be paying those for the rest of my life, and that sucks. The rest of the paycheck was ok though.. I can deal. $162... not bad. Not bad at all... that may not seem like a lot to some people, but hey. We're talking about me. I'm cheap. I think a nickel is a lot of money.

And I've gotten really bad lately too about money... I dropped a penny today, and I decided I was going to leave it on the ground. Well, it just about killed me... I'm like, walking away from it, and in my mind I'm like "Well, what if that one penny would've added up with all my other loose change, and if I waited one more week, I could have $1000 in change... but because I threw away that one penny, it's gonna take me all that much longer to get that $1000!"... which is completely stupid. I never have and never will gain $1000 in change, and one stupid penny is not going to make a difference. And I can always find another penny on the ground, because other people are able to leave a penny on the ground and not worry about stupid things like that. I swear... theres some mental condition that makes it impossible for me to seperate with anything. I hate it...

I went to Petco with my grandma, and I found the perfect bird. Parakeet, of course, because that's what we already have. But this parkeet was special... because it was pure yellow. I'm not kidding when I say pure yellow... it had a little drop of white on it's stomache, but that is the only color besides yellow that was on this parakeet. Usually parakeets have at least a little black. This one was real young yet though, so I'm sure other colors will come in as it grows... but it was so adorable and I wanted to take it home with me right away, because mom has been talking about getting 2 more birds ever since one of the new ones we got died from egg binding (it was pregnant, and couldn't pass the eggs), but mom did make a valid point that I woudl miss the first 2 weeks of it living in our house because of camp, and it probably wouldn't bond with me. Sad! I was going to name this yellow one either Lemondrop or Gumdrop... I wasn't sure. I was afraid that the name Lemondrop would make it a bitter bird. haha. I saw a picture of a purple one though last nite... I want a purple parakeet. I'm sure they're extremely rare though, and probably inbred for purposes of it being purple. Poor animals... being inbred and having problems because for some reason, "purebreeds" are the best kind of animal. My ass... whatever. When it comes to dogs, I would take a mutt over any kind of purebreed anyday.

I love my birds. And my cats. I love animals. When I move out, I'm getting tons, purely for the fact that my mom said I couldn't have any more pets (besides birds) while living in her household. I'm gonna be a cat lady... I'm gonna have 24 cats. I love cats. Ok... I lied... I'll probably only have like, 5 cats.

Well, tomorrow I am packing and then I'm having a neopets card tournament with Carrie, Scott, and my brother. I hope I do better this time than I did last time. I think last time I came in dead last. Out of 4. haha. And my brother is new to the game... so if he beats me, I will be extremely sad. At least I can buy new cards tomorrow though. And I might try out my new swimsuit in my neighbor's pool tomorrow too... so I could actually wear it for a good reason!

It is dreadfully comfortable though, sitting here in this computer chair.

I'll prolly have lines all across my legs... ugh.