It was so incredibly hard to change my layout! Not only for the fact that I put together all the codes myself and everything... but it was changing something that I have seen for like, almost every single day for the past year and a half. I hate change in routine.

I need more changes to happen now though... things have started changing so much around me, that I need to get used to it, because it isn't gonna get any better within the next year to 2 years. I'll be graduating, going off to college, moving out on my own and starting basically a whole new life. Going from something I knew everyday for 18 years to not knowing exactly what is gonna happen within the next 5 minutes. And that scares the crap out of me. I don't like the uncertainty of it all.

I have this sign book I bought that is full of Happy Bunny sayings. My favorite one is this read one that says "School prepares you for the real world, which also sucks". I think you can understand why I find that so hilarious. :)

Another change happened today... I wrote my first check. Wasn't a small one either... $45 to my mom for insurance... ugh. I hate giving up that much money... but it was just a little bit easier because I was directly dealing with cash. I didn't have that $45 sitting in my hand. I just gave her a piece of paper saying that I wanted to give it to her. I could cancel it at any time, right? :)

I didn't have to go to work today. I did end up with dry socket on the lower right side of my jaw. Well, it's not infected or anything, but the clot had dissolved and the bone was exposed. The surgeon pulled the stitches out and then shoved this like 2 inch long piece of medicated strip into the hole. My mom was sitting there, and she thought I was gonna jump out of my skin. I have never felt a pain like that... shoving things into my gums without even numbing me up first or anything. I thought I was gonna pass out after that, and I guess the doc saw that too, because he was all worried about me after he did it. He kept apologizing for it hurting so bad. I felt bad for him! I mean... there was nothing he could really do, and he didn't know I'm such a wimp when it comes to mouth pain. At least my mouth doesn't hurt as bad as it did last night though. I had one heck of a time trying to get to sleep last night because of the pain. And I was finally able to eat real solid food today. Well, not super solid. I'm gonna wait before popping any hard candy into my mouth. But I was able to chew near the back of my mouth, and that made me happy. I ate cheesy poofs. They made my fingers orange... I hate that.

I think I spent all of my creative writing energy last nite at the spark. While I was sitting up in pain, I wrote about 6 entries there. It was crazy. But it sent me on this little quest... there were 2 books I read as a kid that I can't remember the name of, and I really want to know. I think me and my mom are gonna go searching in the basement for those 2 books, because she kept them. She kept all my absolute favorites because she knew how much they meant to me. :) Plus, she's sentimental like that. She keeps crazy things. And she wonders why my room is so messy... I can't get rid of anything, just like her!

I need to upload the pictures from monday's trip... I'll write an entry on the trip tomorrow. :) Should be interesting!

Ok... I had my diary reviewed, and there was a piece of advice that maybe I shouldn't "sign off" when I'm done with an entry by saying things like buhbye or ttyl. But it's so hard! Thats why I keep going on and on about odd things. I can't think of a way to end an entry without saying buhbye. I guess thats something that doesn't have to change today. I don't need this to be a "change everything right now!" day. :)

So I'll write tomorrow. Buhbye!