My Teen Open Diary diary was hacked. The password was taken, the name was changed, the dd was completely erased... the only thing that exists from the other day is the location, age, and gender, and all 700 entries spanning over 3 years.

3 years... 3 years of my life is in my diary. So maybe then you can understand why I bawled my eyes out this morning when I went to check my notes on that diary, and I saw it had been hacked.

I have so much of myself put into that diary. My feelings when my grandma's died. The feelings I had when Cailan and I were fighting... even notes that Cailan had left in my diary! The feelings I had when me and Shaun had our big fight. The feelings of freshman year. Funny moments, sad moments, silly moments. When I look through those entries, I can see how much I have changed, how much I have grown up. I can literally see myself going from child to young woman.

I want to print out some of the entries... but 700 entries. How do you choose just a couple to print out and keep? And you know I'm not a short writer... my entries are incredibly long.

I don't care about the diary name, the HTML codes I had on the front of it, the title of it... I care about the entries. I care about getting myself back. Because thats really what those entries are... me. They're my mind. I can't remember everything. Thats why I write when I'm in the moment.

Today has been a long day. I've been so tired, so listless. Early morning crying does nothing but ruin a day. I've lost my diary, and I've lost my day. Hopefully I'll get at least one of those back.